When A Student Leaves the Work .....

People come and go in the Work, for different reasons. Some attend for a few weeks or months, but realize it's not for them, and leave. All groups experience this sort of fluctuation. It's actually quite good for a group to be in the company of such tramps or lunatics, as it can spur the members on to renew their own efforts.

Occasionally, people attend meetings for several years, but without really conjoining with the Work. They may undertake the exercises - or at least, those of which they personally approve, for they are sure they know best! - but their observations are superficial and they don't take the Work deeper into their centres.

They're afraid of the changes they will be called on to make if they let the Work become real to them, and so they leave.

More serious is the situation of people who leave the Work after studying and practicing it, as well as they can, for ten years or more. Theirs is a difficult state, and it's always, without exception, the result of identifying with the False Personality.

As the Work penetrates into inner parts of centres, False Personality puts up a tremendous fight. Those who are honest with themselves see exactly what is happening, and resist the temptation to identify with the I's which are opposed to the Work. They draw on their Work I's, sometimes called Deputy Steward or Steward, to strengthen their resolve and resist the urge to give up.

The I's in False Personality, and most especially those connected with Chief Feature, always resist the Work with the arsenal of weapons they have at their disposal. They insult the Work and their teacher, pour scorn on the ideas, raise doubts and difficulties in the mind of the student.

They have to, because it's a fight to the death!

There comes a time for every student when the temptation to abandon all they've accomplished in the Work and to side with their False Personality, their Imaginary I, becomes particularly acute. All of us who are long-time students and/or authorized teachers have fought this battle.

Why is it so difficult?

Because the student begins to see - to really understand - that to continue in the Work will totally change their priorities. And they don't want to give up their most cherished I's. They can't imagine life without, for example, their self-importance, their conceit; they can't bring themselves to give up gossiping, or worrying, or compulsively helping, or their favourite form of negative emotion, whatever their individual addiction happens to be.

Vanity and Pride maintain the False Personality and preserve its mask. They form a tight crust around the Essence of the student, and real courage is needed to break through it.

If the student will persevere, and ask for help, they will be given it. Their teacher will set them particular exercises to overcome their individual problems, and Conscious Humanity will send them extra support in the form of very fine energies that will enable their Work I's to grow stronger and to resist the temptations that are encompassing them.

But the basic battle is always the same: to remain clear-sighted, honest, and unflinching in the face of the knowledge they now have of themselves. They must carry on their task of observing their False Personality I's, and disidentifying with them. They must continue to purify their Emotional Centre so that their Higher Centres can speak to them and show them the way.

And absolute honesty - with themselves and with their teacher - is fundamental to success. Without it, they will fail, and will leave.

It's always sad when someone loses the fight after many years in the Work.

All a teacher can do is to provide the right conditions for students to be able to work on themselves. Nobody else can do the Work for them. And if what they learn about themselves is too terrible to acknowledge, because they have not asked for help and have not called on the resources available to them, then they may decide it's easier to maintain their illusions about themselves than to face reality, and they leave the Work.

When this happens, the other students in the group, and the Work teacher, have to leave the student to face the consequences of their choice.

Those consequences will include the feeling of being abandoned, the knowledge that is always there at the back of the mind that they have thrown away something infinitely precious. They will discover that their habitual sleep is now less easy, because they have seen a part of their reality; and their conscience, however deeply it may have been buried, pushes them to change.  But now, outside the Work, the chances are slim that they will be able to achieve any real change, and their suffering increases.

The best hope for such a student is to follow the path of the Good Householder, preferably associated with one of the traditional religions so that they have clear ethical and moral guidelines, and the company of other pilgrims on the way.

Even here, if they persevere, they will be brought back once more to  the point that led them to leave the Work - seeing their own False Personality, their own helplessness, their nothingness. And without the Work to help them through this stage, they may once more abandon the spiritual way, and fall back asleep.

We don't talk about the Work with former students. That's a very important school rule, and the reason is obvious - those who leave, have to try to justify their choice to themselves. They know, deep down, that they made a poor choice, so they have to keep persuading themselves that, after all, they were right - their own False Personality knew best!

And in order to persuade themselves of what they basically know to be a lie, they try to convince others of the same. They lie constantly, to themselves and to others, to keep up the pretence that all is well.

We are told never to talk badly about the Work, and to keep company with someone who's abandoned the Work would lead to bad talking. We avoid it, and them.

We don't completely shun them, as various cults are said to do. If our paths cross, we greet them in a friendly but impersonal way, but we avoid conversation with them as much as possible.  We can't take the risk of their wrong attitude to the Work beginning to affect us, so we stay away from them as far as we can.

The teacher cannot talk about the Work with them any more, since they have made their choice. There is no violence in the Work, and everyone is free to choose to leave, if they wish. But they must accept the loss of their teacher and the friendship of the group members.

What their ultimate fate will be, we don't know. They must have had Magnetic Centre to have persevered with the Work as long as they did, but now they have left, they have no way to satisfy the hunger for truth that will have grown in them over the years.

We're told that we have three lifetimes in which to meet the Work. What we do not know is which lifetime we are currently living - whether it's our first, our second, or third.

Personally, I would not want to take the risk of losing the Work for ever. I have been given so much, have been so greatly changed, over the years I've been in the Work that there is nothing for which I'd willingly exchange it.

But someone who hasn't understood the real value of the Work - or who has, but can't face the effort they know they must make to persevere with it - loses sight of the fact that it may be their last chance to meet with it.

Perhaps they will encounter it again in their next life, if they are given one. But if not, they've thrown away that pearl of great price which gave meaning to their existence, and the only way they may continue their progress is by the long, hard Way of the Good Householder.

We should be very sorry when someone leaves the Work - and very grateful, too, that we have remained.

The Work and Our Surroundings

We've moved! Now we're settling in to our new life by the sea, in a little Arts and Crafts house which we're filling with our books, art and music. It will take months before we've finished putting it all together, but already we can confirm that it's a wonderful move, and that this is the place where we intend to spend the rest of our lives.

The Work tells us that our Being attracts our Life. After more than 40 years in the Work, half as a student and half also as a teacher, I can attest to the way in which our circumstances change according to our needs.

If we're living "in the Work", then Conscious Humanity arranges for us to have the very best surroundings for our own development. To someone brought up in a palace, this could well mean life in a tiny apartment with few belongings. Their task would be to learn to do without the material goods and luxuries that they may have depended on before they met the Work.

For me and for my husband, however, both of us in the Work, we've found that each house move has brought us different tasks and challengers, to meet which we have had to change and adapt, observing ourselves and externally considering those around us in order to live in harmony.

This final move - at least, we hope and pray that it proves to be so! - has given us the most beautiful surroundings, by the sea, in a lovely, genteel resort town with huge parks and lakes, and with plenty of resources of every kind.

 We feel that we are at last planted in the place where we most truly belong, out of all the many we have inhabited in this life; different continents, different environments, and different neighbourhoods. All have given us material for our personal work. But here, in this little seaside town, we're more free than ever before to concentrate on our inner lives and our closest relationships, since we're now living near to our families.

Christianity has always taught that God will bring good out of every situation as long as we are honestly trying to do His will.

And the Work goes further: Conscious Humanity - all the great saints and holy ones, at the head of which is Jesus Christ - takes a keen interest in the wellbeing of anyone sincerely working on themselves.

They do so because our own personal transformation is of tremendous significance to them. When we evolve, when we become able to cooperate with them in aiding the evolution of our planet and ultimately of our part of the Ray of Creation, they rejoice greatly! They are constantly looking for men of women of "good will", as the Bible says, people who can join in the Great Work of the evolution of the universe.

And, because the Fourth Way is so demanding and intense, and can produce results in a much shorter time than any of the religions, Conscious Humanity willingly helps us by giving us the very best circumstances for our development.

They ensure that we will meet exactly those challenges that we need.  And that does not mean we will have an easy time. Far from it!

Depending on our individual situation, we could be placed in financial hardship, causing us to work harder to support ourselves while at the same time keeping in mind our ultimate goal of spiritual growth; or we might find ourselves embroiled in difficult family situations, that encourage us to purify our emotional centre as quickly as possible so that we can externally consider others and see what needs to be done.

It might be that - as has happened to me quite frequently over the course of my 70-something years - we are called to physically move over large distances, so as not to become too dependent on our physical or human environment, and to be willing to leave behind everything familiar in order to follow our higher purpose.

The Work will do this for us, and while we always have a choice in these matters, we will slowly become more able to understand what's best for our development, and hence be able to adapt to many different circumstances - just as Gurdjieff did over his long and eventful lifetime.

Someone living according to an orthodox religious path will be able to see the hand of God at work in their lives, and will see what conduces to leading a good, conscientious life in the midst of challenges.

But the Work is quicker! It speeds things up! And if we can see what each change calls on us to do, how we can best develop in understanding and Being with every new situation, we will find ourselves one day in the best of all possible worlds - for us, that is.

Of course, this life is only one stage in our pilgrimage. Our development continues after physical death, though in exactly what form we cannot know. But we can trust that the unfoldment that has begun here and now will give us the very best circumstances now, and in eternity - and that, in God's wonderful celestial economy, what is good for us is ultimately good for the universe.

The Last Week of the Christmas Season

Yes, this is the last week of the Christmas season. If you've long since taken down your decorations, planted your tree and removed your Christmas cards, don't worry - the Christmas season is a lot more comprehensive than that.

As we've seen in previous posts, Christmas is about receiving Light. And for us in the Work, the birth of the Light means a new birth in Essence.

From the end of October through until February 2nd, the Earth's journey round the Sun exposes it to certain frequencies which are received in greater concentration at this time of the year. They originate from far higher in the Ray of Creation, and it is for this reason that the feast of Christ's birth has long been celebrated on December 25th, following the Shortest Day (the Winter Solstice) on December 21st.

 From the 21st until the 25th, the Sun appears to stand still - the origin of the word "solstice" - and then, from the 25th, begins its apparent movement to lengthen the days once more. The conscious men and women who created the spiritual festivals knew of these special times, and they placed appropriate feasts and fasts to take advantage of them.

By February 2nd, the increase in solar light is obvious. We notice that the days are lengthening once more, and the first flowers of spring, tiny snowdrops and crocuses, begin to appear. At this time, ewes begin to lactate, giving February 2nd its Celtic name of "Imbolc", or incoming milk.

To Christians, it's known as Candlemass, another festival of light, when candles were traditionally taken to church to be blessed for the coming year.

It's more significantly celebrated as the Feast of the Presentation of the Virgin, because forty days after the birth of a child women would go to church (and before that, to the Temple in Jerusalem) to be "purified".

More than this, however, it is the festival when the infant Christ is shown to the elders of the Temple and makes His first public appearance.

The Bible describes this occasion as the day when Simeon, a man who who had long watched for the coming of the Messiah, realized that Jesus (Yeshua, in Hebrew) was the answer to the thousand-year longings of the Jewish people. His famous "Song of Simeon" may be found in the Gospel of Luke, ch.2, vv 29-32.

What does this have to do with the Work?

You will remember that at Christmas, the entire Earth celebrates the birth of the Divine Child. We've prepared for this event by pondering our own death, and the urgent need for us to work on ourselves, during November; by fasting during Advent in expectation of the new birth in Essence to take place on December 25th; by protecting that new life from Second Force both within and without (Herod, in the Bible); and now by getting ready to show this light to the world at the Feast of the Presentation,

In other words, we continue to watch over our inner Divine Child, to ponder over what we have learned during this season, while readying ourselves for the tests we will have to face in life.

We are still in a special season, and the proximity of the Sun to Sirius and to the most sensitive areas of the galaxy will continue to be experienced through this next feast until the great, triumphant celebration of Easter.

We know that during Lent, which this year begins at the end of February, we will face extra tests and challenges, but by now our understanding will, we hope, be strong enough to withstand temptations and trials.

The season of Lent marks the time of concentrated testing for us, which is followed by the intense concentration of Holy Week. We realize that we must place the Work first if it is to survive the season of tests and trials, which are intended to strengthen us to the point where we are able to sacrifice our Imaginary I, the entity that directs our False Personality, on Good Friday.

Easter marks the victory of the Work in us, the rising to life of Real I, which every year is able to increase in power and influence as long as we work on ourselves.

After Easter, the orbits of the Earth around the Sun and of the Sun around Sirius take us to areas of the galaxy where we are faced with a different set of influences, those that favour the putting into practice of all we have gained from our inner journey during the season of relative darkness.

This rhythm of the Christian year, which is not confined to those who observe the Christian religion but is best understood within that context, has been recognized for thousands of years, from long before the actual religion of Christianity was born. We may trace its symbols in the festivals of the ancient Egyptians, the Essenes, the Greek Mysteries, the cult of Mithras, and others. All foreshadowed the ultimate experience of the Life of Christ, the God-Man, on Earth.

It is a guide to the emphases of our Work life as they vary from month to month, and by understanding the influences which act on us at different times we can take advantage of them to strengthen our inner work and our Real I.

The importance and inner meanings of these seasons were always taught by Dr Nicoll, Mrs Pogson, and my own Work teacher, Marion Davison. Each year we contemplated them anew and different tasks were given which corresponded to the phase of the year through which we journeyed. I continued the tradition in my own groups, and in my inner life I find that each year I become more sensitive to these influences, and better able to plan my own personal work to accord with them.

I hope this series of posts will help readers to do the same.

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This is an appropriate time for me to take a break from this blog, because we are about to move house.

Since my husband retired we have been involved in the lengthy process of selling our old house and purchasing our next - and final - home. The house to which we're moving is more than 80 years old and had been badly neglected, so we've been busy restoring, renovating and improving it so that it's ready for us to live in.

We're moving in next week, on Candlemass, and we're calling our house "Little Walsingham" in honour of the Holy Family and the National Shrine of Our Lady, where we've spent many retreats and holidays.

For a while I'll be offline, as we get settled in, but am planning to resume writing in mid-February, so I hope to see you then!

What the Work is Not

It's useful to remind ourselves from time to time of what the Work is not.

Newcomers may confuse the Work with other methods of psychological transformation, and we need to remain clear about what the Work is and what it can do, and how it differs from other paths.

So, a brief rundown and comparison of the Work with a few other methods may be useful. I'm sure many readers will be able to add their own definitions here, and I'm offering this post as a starting-point for your own musings.


The Work is not Counselling

Counselling is a psychological process which helps people to overcome their emotional and mental blocks to living a full life. This is just a very rough definition, of course. Perhaps the client is going through a period of depression, or coping with anxiety, or facing a mid-life crisis. Or perhaps the problem is easier to define, such as a fear of open spaces, or an addiction to a harmful substance or behaviour.

For many people, counselling makes it possible to live happy, fulfilled lives in the world. And this is, after all, what counselling aims to do. It does not promise a cure for all life's problems, but gives the client the skills that are needed to cope with a difficult situation or long-standing unhappiness. Freud himself said that the aim of psychotherapy was to change neurosis into ordinary, human unhappiness! In other words, unhappiness is built into life, and impossible to avoid. Gurdjieff said that life on Earth was a pain factory, and no counsellor can remove all suffering.

We are all broken machines, but some are more broken than others. Some machines develop problems as they face different tasks. For someone in the Work, counselling can be a real help to overcoming acute problems in life, perhaps those that have arisen only recently, or perhaps a long-standing psychological block that has come to light after some time in the Work. For some, the ability to continue in the Work depends on overcoming such a difficulty, and counselling can bring more insight that allows the Work student to carry on with his personal tasks.

If counselling is undertaken, the Work student should go easy on their personal work during this time. With the consent of their teacher, they may decide to stop attending meetings for a while, although it's always important to stay in touch with the teacher so that he or she understands what the student is going through. When the goal of the counselling period has been reached, the student may return to Work meetings and personal observations with new vigour.

A Work teacher may be a counsellor or psychotherapist - as my husband and I are - but they don't offer counselling as such to their Work students. Role confusion and blurred boundaries would result, and this would be unhelpful.  The Work helps what we might call "typically broken machines" to repair themselves with the help of the teacher and - ultimately - with Conscious Humanity. But machines with severe problems need more time and space than can normally be given in the context of meetings and personal interviews, and the teacher may suggest that a student suspend their work and attend some counselling to help them over a difficult hump.

If someone is psychologically damaged to a severe extent, then he or she should not attempt to work on themselves. Such a person would probably not have Magnetic Centre, but it's possible that they may have acquired one, yet be unable to enter the Fourth Way because of their mental problems. Here, a teacher may work together with a therapist to assess the student's mental state and his or her suitability for the Work. It's possible that, after therapy, such a student could go on to study the Work, but it's also possible that the Work could do more harm than good. This is why a new teacher should always consult his or her own Work teacher before admitting newcomers - a psychologically unstable student would harm themselves and the group, and should be refused, painful though this may be.


The Work is not self-help

There are plenty of books on the market that promote self-esteem, self-worth, and so on. Many of them are admirable, but they have little to do with the Work.

The Work teaches us that we can help ourselves only to a very limited extent. That we don't possess the necessary abilities or insights to advance spiritually on our own. That the input of a teacher and a group are important if the student is ever going to be able to "do".

Self-help, on the other hand, says that we all have the ability to transform ourselves and we don't need someone else to show us the way.

In the Work, we see that this is a fallacy. Someone trying to work on their own will reach only the first few notes of the octave and continually fall back. To progress higher we need energy and shocks from outside ourselves; we can't provide these from our own resources.

To make any progress in the Work, our self-esteem will frequently have to take a beating - not in a cruel, judgmental way, but simply through honestly seeing ourselves as we are, and admitting that we are often mistaken and at fault.

If we cannot accept these painful insights, we have no business being in the Work. Self-help works by fostering "good feelings", often in the False Personality, and on calming feelings of uneasiness when we suspect we may not be in the right. In the Work, we must at all costs face ourselves honestly and open ourselves up to the painful, but healing, remorse of conscience that will result.


The Work is not a religion

The inner teachings of many religions may be found in the Work, but the Work is not itself a religion. The religion which is closest to the Work and which contains most correspondences to it is traditional Christianity, either Roman Catholic or Eastern Orthodox. This was Gurdjieff's own background, and there are many, many similarities with it in the Work. But you don't have to be a practicing Christian to study the Work; many Work students follow other paths, or none.

Nevertheless, the Catholic and Orthodox branches of Christianity are the religions to which the vast majority of Work teachers belong, and Gurdjieff himself never renounced his own faith. We can also find many exercises from Buddhism, Sufism and Essene traditions in the Work; Gurdjieff drew from many sources to create the system he gave us in the Fourth Way. And he never demanded that his followers attend any organized religion whatsoever - they were free to do so, or not, as they wished.

The Work has in common with all religions that it recognizes a Higher Power than ourselves; it does not take Man as the highest evolved form of life, unlike humanism and materialistic philosophies. If you cannot entertain the idea of a Higher Power - if you refuse to believe you need help from a source higher than yourself - then you will not get far in the Work.

In talking of religions, Gurdjieff remarked that for most people it was best to follow the religion in which they were raised as children. In it, he said, the individual's own conscience would be most easily found. And the teachings of the conscience - the Natural Law - are the same for all.


The Work is not a branch of the occult

We've all known people who've come into the Work mistakenly believing it to be an occult training school. They are soon disabused, or else they are made to leave.

Why? Because the occult - although that term has occasionally been wrongly applied to the Work - is a way of thinking which seeks to acquire magical powers for the sake of the student's own gain. It is a "dirty" path, which builds on the seeker's False Personality, and it is very dangerous.

 It's no secret, however, that many saints and pilgrims from different religious traditions have developed the powers of clairvoyance, remote viewing, bilocation, and even miracle working. And it's also true that none of these powers have been sought for their own sake, but are a byproduct of spiritual progress in their tradition.

Christians, Buddhists, Sufis and Jews all warn the seeker against striving for occult powers. If they do emerge - and for most people, they do not - it is because particular "miraculous" abilities were needed for an individual situation, and the person concerned has worked on themselves by purifying their emotional centre. Such a student is free from False Personality, and uses Personality only in the service of Essence. He or she has absolutely no desire to gain any unusual powers, but may discover they can use them in service to others and as representatives of a Higher Power.

If your emotional centre is purified then you are safe to use any such powers that may come to you in a particular situation, especially as a result of prayer. If that centre is not purified, then you may have acquired power by some demonic means. This is a very real danger in the occult. Demons do exist - ask any exorcist! Every Catholic diocese must have at least one exorcist available to deal with such phenomena, because they are quite real and extremely harmful.

 Any path which boasts of training people in such abilities, such as those affiliated with the Golden Dawn, are illegitimate and dangerous. They appeal to people who want short cuts to power, but there is no such thing, and the end result is madness, or chronic ill-health, or extreme distress resulting from obsessing spirits. Demonic possession may also occur, although this is more rare.


The Work is not "mindfulness"

Finally, in this brief survey, the Work is to be distinguished from the popular "mindfulness" movement which so many are following today.

The morning exercise does indeed start with very similar observations and techniques. In its initial stages it has much in common with mindfulness meditation, but it goes much further and deeper. The Work teaches us how to become and remain more conscious in our daily lives. It shows us how to observe ourselves in all our centres, so that our observations are truly useful. And then it shows us how to acquire more energy, and more attention, through receiving shocks.

Some of these shocks may be applied ourselves, but others are best given in groups or by the teacher. We will not, by ourselves, give ourselves exactly the shocks we need! We cannot - we are unaware of what they are, and if we do suspect that difficult shocks may be needed, we shy away from doing so because they are unpleasant, at least to begin with.

Mindfulness training does produce positive neurological changes in the brain, as do many meditation techniques. The whole idea of positive brain changes from deep relaxation and observation began to be popularized in the early 1970s, with Transcendental Meditation, and then with the lay-person's version, the "Relaxation Response" of Herbert Benson. These changes are good for us, it's true, and they are produced even more strongly by the morning exercise we learn in the Work.

But, of course, the Work doesn't stop there. It shows us how we may become more and more conscious, and how that consciousness may be extended for longer periods; how to become balanced; ultimately, how to evolve to a higher level of existence. Mindfulness does not claim to do that. Most people would not wish to do so, nor even suspect the possibility exists.


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 I'm sure you will be able to think of even more examples of what the Work is not, but most importantly, we need to remember that the Work is a truly unique system for psychological transformation.  It is a tremendous gift to all of us who study it, and it is the shortest way to completing this stage of our evolution so that we may be free to live at a higher level. The Way of the Good Householder will one day lead us all there, if that is the way we choose - but the Work is quicker.  And, under the guidance of an authorized teacher, it is also safe. May we all remember the uniqueness of the Work, and value it even more.

Outfoxing Your Inner Herod: A Cautionary Post

We've followed the birth of the holy child and have seen how, immediately afterwards, the notorious Hasnamuss King Herod moved to slaughter the newborn king. To achieve his aim he butchered every young male in Bethlehem. Warned in a dream, Joseph took Mary and their tiny baby, Jesus, to Egypt, where they were sheltered by friends.

Those who took the family in were most likely members of the Essenes or Therapeuts, esoteric groups which traced their descent from a combination of Jewish mystical thought and the ancient religion of Egypt. That religion had many features in common with Christianity,  as Gurdjieff recognized. It existed before the birth of Christ and must have been linked even further back with the Sarmoung Brotherhood, perhaps through descendants of the "Society of Learned Chaldeans" who had made their way from Babylon to On-Heliopolis in Egypt.

We've seen how the story of the nativity may be lived out by each one of us, if we work on ourselves. We also noted, in previous posts, that the period from the end of October (Halloween, Samhain, All Saints and All Souls days), right through until Ascension, is a time when the Earth is exposed to certain energies which emanate from way beyond our Solar system, from much higher in the Ray of Creation, energies which boost and vivify our own personal work on ourselves.

Those energies are at their most concentrated form in the period from Advent to Candlemass.

But with each new birth there comes the danger of persecution by "Herod".

Herod - or Amalek, or the Hasnamuss throughout history - hates Essence. It hates all higher energies, all spiritual progress. Its aim is to drag the student down and destroy her spiritual life. From this hatred comes the ancient story of "selling one's soul to the devil" - and it really does happen.

We can see this in the outside world, which is only too full of destructive, ill-willed, murderous groups of Hasnamusses. At present we see them most clearly in the Middle East; the Amaleks, the Hasnamusses, who hate Jews, Christians and moderate Muslims, and are doing their best to wipe them out. They particularly hate Israel, where all of the region's Jews and many Christians now live, having found refuge there; and also because Israel contains a large and well-functioning Work group linked to the Paris Foundation. Of course, the forces of destruction don't know about the Work, but the spiritual energy of such a group produces a very fine vibration which the Hasnamusses may sense. We must pray for the light of that region to overcome its darkness.

Most of all, we need to remember that we, too, harbour Hasnamuss I's.

These I's cluster around Chief Feature and Imaginary I. Both entities seek the destruction of our Essence, because ultimately, if we succeed in moving to a higher level of Being, both will be eliminated. So they cling on for dear life.

And then there are those pesky little I's in Emotional or Intellectual Centres which sap our energy and deplete our work by causing worry, anxiety, depression, fear or anger. They never really disappear in this lifetime, but can bide their time and lurk until we're less conscious and unable to fight them - and then they can pounce and destroy months of work in an instant.

What should we look out for, then, in this inner struggle? How may we best protect our newly-born inner child from our inner Herod, or from the ill-willed I's in other people?

First, I would suggest, watch your internal and external talking. How do you talk to yourself about the Work? Do you let doubts and anxieties overwhelm you, or do you simply observe them and disidentify from them? Any Work problems should, of course, be discussed fully and honestly with your teacher. We have all gone through periods of testing and even inner persecution from I's which reject the Work, for the reasons I've outlined above. There's no need to suffer alone.

Unfortunately, some students, wanting to avoid exposing their problems to the teacher, discuss them instead only with other students or with people outside the Work. By doing so, they risk losing everything they've worked for.

If you think I'm exaggerating, I'm not. I could tell you many stories from my own experience as a student and a teacher of the Work for the past 45 years. I've seen capable, sincere students talk badly about the Work with their fellow students and with people who aren't in the Work at all, and end up outside the Work and with no guiding light at all.

Sadly, many of those in our lives have nothing in common with us spiritually. And even when they do, even when they too are seekers after truth, they sometimes have their own agenda for disparaging the Work and the teacher. They may envy us our progress; they may wish to dominate us; they may sow seeds of distrust and discord in our relationship with the teacher and the Work.

That's one of the reasons we in the Work must be very careful about whom we choose as close friends, and whom we live with or marry. Jesus warns us about this: he says it may sometimes be necessary to "hate" those close to us, if they threaten our spiritual life. He didn't mean to literally hate, of course, but that we must put firm boundaries in place between ourselves and those who don't share our values. If we don't do this, we risk losing our contact with the Work and with Conscious Humanity.

 Sometimes we find that so-called "friends" are really highly controlling people who want to be the main influence in our lives - and our Work prevents them from achieving that goal. So they attack the Work, or at least, that particular group, that teacher. And they can lead the naive student right away from the Work, for ever. Such people are Hasnamusses, even though they may appear well-meaning.

I saw this process take place with a young Work student in an English group, who'd made a good beginning and was starting to purify his Emotional Centre. I'll call him Jim. Jim reached some real points of understanding in the Work, so much so that his own Work teacher thought Jim might one day go on to become a teacher himself. But Jim was friendly with someone more intellectually trained than he was and who was jealous of the teacher's influence.  This man could quote various scientists and other "experts" to "prove" that Jim's group was on the wrong track, and Jim began to doubt his teacher and his own inner work.

As Jim fell more and more under the influence of his intellectual "friend" he lost the real gains he had made in the Work. He allowed the false friend to come between himself and his teacher, and to prevent him from working on himself.  Jim's "friend" persuaded him that the two of them should start their own group, calling themselves a Work group but spreading non-Work ideas and teachings, even though Jim's teacher, realizing that something was very wrong, had forbidden Jim to teach. Jim went along with his friend's suggestion, deceiving his own teacher and pretending to obey his instructions while secretly defying him.

A colossal psychological and spiritual black hole resulted, a state of entropy in which much valuable work, energy and insight was lost. Such an act is a spiritual crime, a form of corruption that is taken very seriously at the highest level. Jim had stolen precious energy and time from his teacher, and had behaved like a Hasnamuss. Indeed that is what he had become. The result was that Jim had to be expelled from the Work, much to his teacher's sorrow.

This was a particularly sad case.  I knew all the people involved; Jim was a likable young man with many good qualities, who had shown great potential. It is a huge shame that he has lost the Work, at least in this lifetime. If he is to make any progress at all now it will have to be as a Good Householder, and even then only after much repentance and making amends. This way is much, much slower than the Work. And, like the Work, it requires moral clarity and the courage to be honest and obey one's conscience. Since Jim had lost these attributes it would be very difficult, perhaps impossible, to regain them and begin again. He will never be accepted in any authorized Work group.

 If necessary, we must break with false friends who oppose the Work. Though seemingly well intentioned, out of jealousy they will play the role of Herod in our spiritual life and destroy our work.

All of us in the Work should pray to have the strength and wisdom to guard our understanding as a precious child within us, and to protect it from the harmful wishes of Hasnamuss I's. What's more, we should also pray for those like Jim, who've been deceived in this way by Hasnumuss I's in themselves and in others, that they may think again, or repent, as the Gospels put it, before it is too late.

The Gospels warn that anyone who leads astray a little child - in this case, our newly-birthed understanding in Essence - deserves to have a millstone hung around the neck and to be drowned. .

If we expose that inner child to ill-willed people, to those who don't understand the Work and who may be actually antagonistic towards it, then we are in danger of losing it.

Therefore, our particular task at this point in the year is to watch for the inner Hasnamuss I's, the inner Herod, which seek to destroy what we have so recently gained - and which is still so fragile. And we must remain on our guard against outside influences that are hostile to the Work, the Hasnamuss I's in other people which seek to corrupt and suborn us in order to attack that child.

If necessary, take flight into Egypt.  Don't discuss the Work with anyone except those whom you know to support it, and who share your aims. Your teacher is one, of course, and so are those long- time fellow students whose attitudes and efforts are proof of their own good will towards the Work.

Don't run the risk of losing all that you have so painstakingly worked for now.  Nourish your inner holy child with your understanding so that it may grow into maturity, and your Essence may eventually direct your entire life.

It is for this purpose that you were born.

Making Aim for the New Year

Most people make New Year resolutions.

 In the Work, however, making Aim is our particular task for this time of year. Although the New Year is basically a secular holiday centered on a change in the calendar, it's still a significant moment in which to pause to evaluate ourselves, to look at what we'd like to change and what we wish to encourage in our personal work.

The New Year celebration is actually a part of the Christmas season, which extends from the beginning of Advent until February 2nd (Candlemas). Only habit and commercial pressure, which hurries us on from one spending splurge to another, stop us from fully experiencing the richness of this season.

What has this to do with making Aim?

Everything!

For a start, looking at the season in a new way, and appreciating how it extends in time from Advent through to the beginning of February, is a form of metanoia. Dr. Nicoll was clear about the need for metanoia in every area of our life. Society has forgotten the real Christmas season, but in the Work we wish to understand and enhance its unique potential for our personal growth.

With this attitude we can begin to see the entire annual cosmic and spiritual calendar in a different way. We can look back and appreciate how, at the start of Advent, we began to prepare ourselves for the new birth in Essence which would take place on Christmas Night.

Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the following few days are an especially concentrated time for us in our personal work. There's much joy and celebration, but also the danger that the new energies coming to us at this time may prove too much for our limited understanding, and may turn to negativity.

So, to maintain the inflow and to make the greatest use of this potential, we make the effort to stay positive amidst all the various events around Christmas - the present-giving, the family reunions, the parties, the extra food and drink most of us will consume - and to resist the commercial interests that try to push us to burn up all this fine energy in an orgy of shopping.

The new birth must be watched over, safeguarded.

Immediately the Wise Men told King Herod that they had learned of the birth of a new king, Herod plotted to destroy him. To make sure that he would dispose of the tiny rival, he ordered all the young boys in Bethlehem to be slaughtered.

For us, Herod is a symbol of all the Hasnamuss forces, both within and without, that seek the destruction of Essence, of that sacred place within each of us where the new birth takes place.

Today, these forces include not only the commercialization I've already mentioned, but also the many threats to peace that invade our inner and outer worlds. Externally, we've seen so many atrocities this year - including right in the midst of Christmas celebrations - that we almost become resigned to them; we can become wearied of trying to fight what seems to be the inevitable destruction of so many Western values, of our whole way of life.

It is really a cosmic battle of good versus evil that is taking place.

 It is not simply a clash of cultures, of civilizations, or even of religions, as the media present it. It is a basic struggle between the forces of good, led by Conscious Humanity, and the forces of evil, of mechanicalness, of the destruction of all real values. The Will of the Absolute cannot reach so far down the Ray of Creation, and it is our urgent task to fight this battle on the side of Consciousness. If evil - mechanicalness - prevails, only darkness and chaos will result. And in this tremendous battle, God needs our help.

The opposing forces today are exactly the same as those during World War II. Only their names have changed. Their aim is the same; to eliminate everything good, everything holy, all that comes from God.

We know we cannot avoid this struggle, which will become ever more intense at crucial times of the year, when the cosmic energies are available to all, for good or ill. We must do everything we can to combat external evil, by speaking out against terror, by writing to power-possessing beings, by emphasizing peace and goodwill in our own personal circle.

Faced with the huge scale of evil that exists today, the most powerful weapon we have are our prayers, our own personal work on ourselves, and our refusal to imitate our enemies in hating others and wishing to destroy them.

If we all redouble our efforts now to become more conscious, we will increase our own supply of higher hydrogens, and we will produce a surplus to offer to Cosmic Humanity as they guide the future of our planet and of humankind. They need our efforts. The whole Catholic and Orthodox Christian faiths recognize this fact, and urge us to offer up our suffering, to make extra efforts, to increase our prayers and devotions at this time so that good may overcome evil.

The new birth within our Essence, so precious and sacred, must be kept safe from all the external forces that would injure and destroy it.

We must be clever as well as wholehearted in this struggle.

Saint Joseph, in the Gospels, plays the part of the Sly Man. When he learns of the evil intentions of Herod in a premonitory dream, he takes the Divine Child and His Mother, Mary, and escapes with them to Egypt. The location is significant, because many elements of the Christian faith were found in the Essenes and the Therapeuts in Egypt, and in the monotheistic religion of Akhnaten. There were many ready to help the Holy Family in Egypt, and the tiny child was blessed and protected.

As Saint Joseph protected Jesus, so must we protect our own understanding and insights in the Work.

But threats come not only from outside, but from within us, from our Chief Feature, which wishes to destroy all that's good and true in us, in order to reign supreme in its own hellish world.

So, all our negative thoughts, negative emotions, anxieties, worries, deceptions, vanity, and so on will be exacerbated now unless we stay attentive.

Watch and pray; that is what all the Gospels tell us, and it applies especially to critical nodes in the year, of which Christmas is among the most important.

Protect your new birth; carry it into the New Year; and formulate an Aim which will give your Essence the best chance of growth, and of your whole understanding to be increased during the year to come.

The Eternal Truths of the Nativity Scene

Picture the Nativity Scene. You probably don't even have to use your imagination - chances are you have a model crib set up in your house, or Christmas cards with a picture of this timeless tableau. And you know what it looks like by now, after years of celebrating Christmas.

In most churches you will find a model crib, although usually the baby Jesus is not placed in the manger until the night of Christmas Eve. When he is put there, generally by a child from the congregation, the significance of the moment is marked with carols and prayers.

This is the moment which symbolizes the new birth in Essence, which we may all experience.

What do you see?

Inside a stable, we have the central image of the mother and child. The baby, the Holy Infant, lies in a crib lined with straw, and his mother, Mary, bends over him with a loving gaze. In some versions, Mary holds the baby in her arms, so that all may see him and join with her in loving him.

Behind the mother and child stands Joseph, the stepfather of this child who is of divine origin. Joseph is his father on earth, the one who will protect, support and guide him to maturity; he is ever watchful, looking out for danger, permanently on guard.

In front we have the shepherds, humble peasants in their workaday clothes, perhaps carrying a lamb or two as a gift. Their flocks of sheep are sometimes shown in the background, quietly grazing.

The three kings, or wise men, the Magi, are often depicted in this scene, despite the fact that they arrived last of all. It's important that they are present, as we shall see. They, too, bear gifts; the traditional gold, frankincense and myrrh, symbolizing kingship, priesthood and divinity, and the bitterness of suffering and death.

Angels are usually present, too, sometimes shown on the thatched roof of a stable, sometimes in the background, silently offering their homage to the God-Man who comes in the form of a baby.

And many nativity tableaux show the obeisance of the animals, with the ox, ass, sheep and other farmyard creatures sometimes standing, sometimes kneeling, as the traditional story narrates. It's not in the Bible itself, but we all know of the legend of the animals kneeling at midnight to honour the
newborn king.

This scene, then, is the time-hallowed depiction of the timeless story that is so rich in symbolism that it delights our eyes and our heart, whether we are three years old, thirty, or ninety! The more we contemplate it, the more meaning we can find in it. No wonder that it is universally popular and easily recognized even by those who are not Christians.

In the Work, of course, it possesses an even more significant meaning.

First of all, of course, we realize that the baby, who is both God and man, represents for us our deepest self, our Essence, in which we may one day encounter Real I. That I is already present in us, just as the tiny baby is already God and King of the Universe, but we have to mature and grow in the spiritual life in order to be able to find it.

 In the same way, that baby in the manger will have to grow up, to gradually become aware of his mission, and ultimately to experience the greatest possible suffering in order to reign as that divine king which he innately is.

The angels are sometimes called the thoughts of God. Their name literally means "messengers", as you probably know, and their function in the nativity scene is to represent divine inspiration in that part of us which we call the Higher Intellectual Centre. This centre constantly tries to communicate with us, to inspire and guide us, but it is only when we are purified and educated in the spiritual life that we are able to listen to it.

Mary, as I wrote in the previous post, represents here the Higher Emotional Centre. Her role in the scene is to contemplate the majesty and mystery of this holy birth which her assent has made possible, and to portray the positive emotions which we, too, may experience when our emotional centre is purged of negativity.

Joseph begins his role in the gospels as the type of the Good Householder, whose role is to guide and protect the child and to ensure his family are safe. He teaches his divine son a trade, so that he may make a living in this world, but he does not seek a reward in life; he lives from his conscience, and always does the right thing. Gradually, he will come to represent the role of the Deputy Steward, and then, as he grows in understanding, the Steward, who guards the precious Work I's within us.

In the outer circle are the shepherds, representing the ordinary life I's, who do their job diligently. They, too, are Good Householders, because although they fulfil their roles in life they are also aware of higher possibilities. This awareness allows them to respond to the angels' message, so that they find their way to the stable and the child within.

The Three Kings, of course, represent the intellectual centre in us. They have reached the highest level possible for that centre in its life role, but they also have the possibility of receiving communications from the Higher Intellectual Centre. When they do, they understand that their own reasoning, based on human studies, has reached its limits. In worshipping the divine infant they also acquire the possibilities of the Higher Intellectual Centre, so that this role is shared between them and the angels, the evangeloi.

In the background we see the sheep, the I's in emotional centre which must be led and disciplined; and finally, the other animals present represent the instinctive/moving centre I's in us. They, too, have an important role to play, for without them we would not be able to respond to the higher levels. The instinctive centre usually needs no education, unless it has become pathological, and then it may need healing - the divine infant has also come to heal.

 The moving centre, however, must be educated so that it serves the needs of the entire human being, including - if we work on ourselves - our higher centres. They may be disciplined in many ways, of course, but in the Work the most important effort here is that which we make in the morning exercise, when the lesser I's must be still so that we may become conscious.

The Nativity Scene, then, in all its elements, pictures the order in which we, as spiritual pilgrims, ought to live our lives. Everything is directed towards appreciating and nurturing the Real I, through the new birth in Essence which we may all experience at Christmas if we have worked for it.

That I deserves our obeisance and our adoration, because it is the opening to the divine.

Only through Essence, which is that part of us that everything in life encourages us to neglect and overlook, may Real I be reached.

All the other I's within us must serve it; we must undergo a long training so that this right ordering becomes possible.

That is the Work. That is the Nativity Scene.

I wish you a Merry Christmas and a new birth in Essence!

The World's Hope Comes From Outside

"The world's hope comes from outside it," says Professor Timothy Keller in his excellent book on Advent, "Hidden Christmas".

Indeed, it must be so.

The Christ child, the agent of our ultimate redemption, has a physical body, to be sure, composed of the elements of earth, just as his mother, Mary, is a human being.

His spirit, however, comes from God, directly from the Holy Spirit himself.

In a sense, this is similar to the state of every human being, as we saw in the previous post. We are all part of the animal creation, but our soul comes from God. The difference between our own state and that of Conscious Humanity - which includes Jesus, its Head, and all the many saints, messengers and teachers who have reached the highest state possible for a human being-  is that we are undeveloped; they have reached their highest potential and are Objectively Conscious.

We too are offered the chance to develop to this state, if we wish. This development may only be brought about by our willing cooperation with the forces of redemption, themselves springing from God, from a place far higher than this little, low-down planet, Earth.

We can't save ourselves. Earth cannot redeem herself. We need help, and we have, first of all, to acknowledge that need. If we think we are self-sufficient and can already "do", then we cannot be educated. Humility, the acceptance of our fallen and ignorant state, is the first prerequisite for any education in the realm of the spirit.

Mary, the virgin mother of Christ, is the most complete example of humility in the gospels. It is why she is the Chief Apostle, the Queen of Angels, and the model for all Christians.

From the very start, she accepts her role as one of "active passivity", of cooperating fully with God so that His aims may be accomplished through her.

"Be it done unto me according to thy word," she tells the Angel Gabriel at the Annunciation. She does not understand what is to happen, but she has been raised among conscious people dedicated to the service of God, and she knows that what is from Him will be good.

Whenever we encounter Mary in the gospels, her role is to direct us towards Jesus, He who is both God and man.

At the wedding in Cana, she tells the anxious steward and servants, who have run out of wine, to "Do whatever He tells you".

We meet her again in Bethany, where we see clearly once more that the role of Mary - the Mary within us all - is to sit at the feet of Christ and listen to His teaching.

That is the "better part", Jesus affirms. We cannot do anything unless we first listen to what God is telling us, unless we allow His teaching to enter into us and transform us. All our rushing around and Martha-like busy work leads nowhere unless informed by divine instruction and inspiration.

In the Work, all meetings begin with a passive Doh. This is the first requirement for any meeting to take place. We gather together in silence and we sit in the presence of our teacher, maintaining that silence, so that Work I's from a place deep within may come to the foreground of our awareness. Only then may we receive new energy and understand what is taught. Only then are we ourselves in a state worthy to speak.

Our passivity is really a state of watching and waiting while the little, formatory I's in the outer parts of centers die away and cease to draw our attention. In this sense we can call it an "active passivity", and it is in this state that we are able to receive teaching from a higher source.

Mrs Pogson explained that Mary represents the Higher Emotional Centre in us. Her "Be it done unto me according to thy will" is that state which we need to attain so that God may act within us.

Her passive waiting is the equivalent of the passive Doh at the beginning of a Work meeting. She is not passive for the sake of it, or because she is lazy or ignorant; quite the reverse. This state is one of high alert, of serene watchfulness.

Her virginal state symbolizes the purity of the Higher Emotional Centre, free from all other distractions.  There is nothing to take the attention away from God, Who speaks to that center not in words but in pictures, and through the inspiration of Positive Emotions.

It is in this "virginal" state that we must wait in Advent for the coming of Christ. We do not know exactly what to expect, because the new birth in Essence which we may experience will be utterly new, utterly different from our everyday experiences.

And the birth, although it takes place deep within, is ultimately a gift from outside our own limited consciousness.

In this way, the Christian religion is completely the opposite of New Age systems. The latter tell us that we can have anything we want, that we can influence the universe to bend to our will. The success of books based on this false premise shows how deepseated is the belief in the power of wishful thinking, despite all evidence to the contrary.

Christianity tells us the opposite, as do all the world's true religions. We are not all-powerful, far from it - and thank goodness for that. If we were, the world would be in an even worse state than it is at present. Our ability to "do" is limited, and ultimately we depend entirely on God for our wellbeing and our growth.

So that He may act in us, so that He may be born in us, we need to cultivate Mary's attitude of serene acceptance and contemplation. Then we will become aware of His presence, and He will be able to use us for our own highest and best good and for the good of the universe.

"Absolute stillness for as long as possible, that is what is best for you," says Meister Eckhart. That is the state in which we need to dwell for God to accomplish His will in us. That is Mary's inner state, and it is why she is the model for contemplatives from every denomination.

In Advent, we remain still, we wait, and we hope.

The Divine Child Within Us

The Catholic church where I attend Mass has a large statue of the Infant of Prague above the altar. In case you haven't seen it, that statue - which is reputed to have worked many miracles - consists of a beautiful young child, a boy aged about 3 years, wearing splendid robes and a golden crown. The image represents Jesus Christ as a King, but a non-threatening, delightful, very lovable king.

Everyone loves a baby! Until about 5 years old, children live entirely in their Essence. Then you can see the beginnings of Personality forming, but False Personality plays no part in their lives until about 6 or 7, when they start learning negative emotions from the adults around them. A very small baby or child is completely in Essence, and the Infant of Prague shows this truth very clearly.

Dr. Nicoll said that the smile of an infant has a cleansing effect on those around her. We respond directly to the love and joy of another's Essence, which he sometimes termed a person's "darlingness". And the advent of a baby, whether in myth or reality, is always a joyous event, no matter what the circumstances.

Counselling theory tells us that we each have an inner child. In Transactional Analysis (TA) terminology, that child is either "OK",  which is basically the same as being in Essence; or "not OK", which equates to being in False Personality.

Many therapies aim to address the concerns of our inner child. TA encourages clients to observe their thoughts and words, just as the Work does, and to see whereabouts in their inner world they are located at that moment. As well as the Inner Child, we also operate from an Inner Adult or Parent, and there are different voices within these categories. Observation tells us exactly where we are coming from in the present. Skilled counsellors can help us locate ourselves.

In this post, I want to look at the Inner Child, because we are expecting the birth of a Divine Child in the world at Christmas, and the image holds great significance for all of us.

When we are in Essence, we are ageless. Because the Essence is ever youthful, we often find it portrayed in mythology as a Divine Child, or Child Hero. Many religious myths describe miraculous births, and they all embody a universal truth: the Essence within, our spontaneous child, comes from elsewhere.

Essence is not born on Earth. What is born here is the body; the Essence simply continues its journey in a different form.

When you were born, your soul had already been created. Your body was assembled from the DNA
of your parents, but your Essence - your soul - came directly from God.

Essence, once created, is indestructible.

The Work teaches that we are here to learn, to experience difficulties, to grow. Our task at first is to develop Personality, so that we can live as Good Householders, but later it changes, and we need to develop our Essence.

A rich and strong Personality is an asset in the Work, because it creates better food for Essence. Gurdjieff would not accept students unless they had already achieved something in life, whether that was raising children or learning a trade. Someone with no life skills would not be able to nourish their Essence, and since this is the whole point of the Work it would be useless for them to attempt it.

Our Essence is our Inner Child, and that child, springing directly from the hand of God, is divine in origin. The Christmas story reminds us of our own origin, and touches the deepest, most spiritual part of us, our own Essence, where we meet with Real I.

In the Work, we say that Christmas symbolizes a new birth in Essence, and in previous posts we've looked at the reasons why cosmic conditions are especially ripe for such a development at this stage in the earth's yearly round. The whole of humanity could, if people worked on themselves, experience this new birth now. Only from inner work can real progress come, and now is the time for that work to reach its peak in those who are able to respond.

It takes many years before our work can directly benefit our Essence. First, we have to subdue False Personality so that it no longer has power over us, and there are no short cuts in this process. The subordination of Personality itself to Essence occurs later, and it is here that we learn to directly feed our Essence.

 Our Essence should direct our life, not our Personality. And it is this ideal state which is symbolized by the statue of the Infant of Prague. That child is a Divine King, and rules over His creation with benevolence and compassion, just as we are to rule our inner world.

For many people, unfortunately, False Personality, with all its negative emotions and fearful I's, all its anger and resentment, deceit and despair, is what directs their life. You have only to look around you to see that this is true. All the empty promises of consumer society gain their power only from False Personality. And yet, so many ruin their lives and the lives of those around them by chasing after these shadows; they die without ever having truly lived.

Personality rules the majority of so-called "civilized" people. They may have the ability to amass wealth, to organize their lives, to achieve their goals, and to influence others, but if they are not living from Essence then they, too, are inwardly dead. Personality relates to life, not to the spirit. Many people with strong personality are trapped in its shell. They want the rewards of life, not dreaming that there is anything more, but they may begin to catch glimmers of the spiritual world, and then they can choose to follow that, rather than life.

Counselling works on the Personality and the False Personality. Eventually, when a right inner order is reached, spiritual goals may be discerned, and it's then that the Work, or the inner, mystical teachings of religion, can become our way to wholeness.

Essence is born an infant, but to direct our life it must develop into an adult. The Divine Child remains the source of inspiration, but the child must be taught, must be educated in the ways of the world, so that - without ever identifying with them - it can steer a path though this world.

We nourish our Essence when we listen to its needs. Our Inner Child will tell us what it longs for, if we learn to hear its voice. Of course, this means that we have to put in many years of observation so that we understand where each inner voice is coming from. The voices often conflict, and we must be clear about which intuitions and impulses we should follow, and which we must at all costs avoid.

Essence longs for beauty. It is fed with beautiful images, music, poetry, scripture; with the beauty of nature and the awesomeness of mountains and seas.  Just as it appreciates beauty, it also creates beauty. Our creative powers come from our Essence, though it is Personality which knows how to express them in art, craft or writing.

Essence is fed with compassion. Every time we honour our compassionate I's, we are nourishing Essence. We need boundaries, of course, so here again much observation is vital, otherwise we will become codependent and sentimental. Learning to avoid these pitfalls is part of the education we must give our inner child.

Essence lives by Buried Conscience. We have to be very alert to follow its promptings, which always lead us to truth and openness. Lying kills Essence. Lying includes self-deception as well as the deception of others. Once more, observation is the only guide. And we must always be strictly honest with ourselves if our Essence is to flourish. Burying our conscience by self-calming measures leads only to the death of Essence.

People sometimes dream of children or babies. These dreams are often numinous, suffused with great meaning. It may be that a child comes to show us the way on a journey, or we are given a small baby to look after; we may see a neglected child crying for attention, or an infant running along a garden path. All these dreams, and many more, signify that our Essence, our Divine Child, is calling out to us. It needs us so that it may express itself in the world. And we need it, to be the guiding light of our entire life.

If you have a spare moment, you might study a picture of the Infant of Prague and think about what it symbolizes.

The priests who serve our church belong to the Institute of Christ the King, Sovereign Priest, and they chose that particular statue because they want us to know that our Heavenly King is a completely non-violent, non-judgmental, non-threatening King, He has not come to condemn us or to tyrannize us, as an earthly ruler might do. He wants to draw us by love alone, and in the form of a very young child He comes to solicit our compassionate response.

This Christmas, the Divine Child is calling to us. We await His birth with eagerness and joy. If we have worked for it, we too will experience a new birth within our Essence.

Advent Is Not Christmas

Although the shops are frantically trying to sell us quantities of stuff we don't need or even want, in the name of "Christmas", we must remind ourselves that we are in the season of Advent, not Christmas. Christmas does not arrive until December 24th, at midnight, and it will last for twelve days and nights. It is not yet here.

Advent is a feast that has largely been forgotten outside of the Catholic and Orthodox Eastern churches. Huge commercial pressures exist to manipulate the masses into believing that Christmas has already begun - and that it consists of worshipping Mammon, not Christ. An orgy of compulsive shopping annually takes over the Western world, and even reflective Christians can find it hard to disidentify and remember we are only in Advent.

Advent means that we are waiting for an important event to take place. It has not yet happened. We are not going to be ready for it to occur unless we prepare well, and for that we need a month of quiet reflection and inner work.

Not that we can't go out and buy some presents, of course. The best gifts are often those we've made ourselves, as they convey the message that energy, time and effort have been spent, and these are far more precious than mere money. One devout Catholic lady I know in West Wales makes 27 Christmas cakes every year. They are wonderful gifts, greatly appreciated, both because the person is an excellent baker and because the recipient knows the love and care that have gone into making each cake.

But a list of presents should represent only one aspect of Christmas, and each gift should be something thoughtful, something meaningful, not simply the ticking of a box or the crossing off of an item. Apart from offices or clubs who may operate a "Secret Santa" gift scheme every year, most Christmas presents are personal, given from individuals to their loved ones, family members or close friends. Considering their needs and perhaps unvoiced wishes is external considering and is a fine part of our Advent preparation.

We may decorate the house and office, but simply; evergreens are often brought indoors and wreaths and decorative candles lit, but the tree and its decorations are best left for the final few days of Advent. Then, in the last days before Christmas, perhaps on Christmas Eve itself, the atmosphere of hope and expectancy receives a huge boost and we are reminded of the celebration to come. Doing all this too early leaves many people jaded and bored. By the time Christmas arrives they may be thoroughly sick of the whole idea, not too mention out of pocket, hungover and with digestive problems!

During Advent, big parties and celebrations are inappropriate. We can't celebrate something that has not yet happened! It may be impossible to escape from office or club dinners, and so on, but while we may need to fulfil some obligations in this way, it should again be a question of externally considering those around us, rather than an invitation to guzzle and booze our way through December! We take part to help spread joy, not to over-indulge ourselves.

My teacher, Marian, used to point out that as the galaxy is sending us powerful energies now (see last week's post for a description of this process) these energies must be correctly received, and not allowed to become negative. In just the same way that meditation increases our higher hydrogens, but that energy may be dissipated uselessly unless we remain in attention, so the extra hydrogens that come to us freely from the heavens now must be treasured and used for good, not wasted.

She pointed out that people can very easily become negative about Christmas, due to the commercial pressures I've mentioned and to mental clutter from the past. We should watch out for negativity in our private thoughts and in our conversations, and when we feel this happening we should consciously transform the negative energies into positive ones. This may be done very simply and unobtrusively, and is a good Work exercise during Advent.

Christmas cards, letters and phone calls all increase our loving connections with friends and family and are very much a part of Advent. They help to prepare us all, even those who are unaware of the inner meaning of the season, so that the whole Earth may benefit from the spiritual energies we are all being showered with now.

So, repentance must be continuous during Advent; not a gloomy, condemnatory process, but an acknowledgement of our inner states, and of what needs to change. We wish to observe ourselves throughout this season, watching to see that nothing will impede the new birth, nothing delay or dim the transformation it will bring. We long to receive a new mind, the gift of metanoia, but first we must discard what we can of our old, useless I's.

All those selfish, False Personality I's that prevent us from relating properly to others must be allowed to die away in us. Far from going on a mindless shopping trip to acquire more stuff, we should be considering what we need to empty ourselves of, what we need to let go, so that when Christ is born, in our Essence, we will be in the right state of Being to realize what has happened.

That new birth in Essence is something to be devoutly wished for. And, just as a mother expecting her baby will make sure the house is thoroughly clean and ready for the precious new occupant, so we must be willing to "clean house" in our own internal world so that the Divine Child may live in us.

In the Eastern churches, Advent is a time of fasting in exactly the same way as Lent. Virtually a vegan diet is followed, preparing and "detoxing" the body ready for a healthy celebration at Christmas. Now is not the time to overeat and drink ourselves into oblivion. Recollection includes awareness of the body as well as of the mind. Sobriety is the watchword.

Advent is a season of quiet joy, happy expectancy, serene watchfulness. All the inner work that we have been carrying out since the beginning of Autumn will bear fruit at Christmas.

May we all enjoy a happy and fruitful Advent, and give the season its due importance in our yearly inner calendar!

Advent - Waiting and Watching

The Earth is still and quiet now. The last leaves are falling from the trees, colouring the landscape with brown, orange, red, gold, the tints of sunset. The late autumn winds hurry them on their way, and as December begins, we see many bare branches reaching out to the sky, stark and black against the sky as though in urgent supplication.

Days are approaching their shortest. The lessening of the sun's light is very noticeable now. Fields wait quietly for the next year's sowing; the landscape's greens are darker, the deep conifers shadowy and still, the grass no longer growing.

We are at the beginning of Advent, the time of waiting expectantly for the birth of Christ. It happened once in history, and it will happen again and again in our hearts at the time of the winter solstice for as long as the Earth remains.

The church marks the beginning of the liturgical year, yet another new start, new opening of opportunity, new hope for spiritual pilgrims.

The Advent season lasts four weeks, and culminates in Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, the time when the longed-for birth will take place in the dark, small, quiet cave of our spirit; the new birth in Essence that we celebrate each Christmas. It happens every year, yet is always new.

Commercially, Christmas is in full swing already, shrilly demanding that we hurry to buy more and more unnecessary things, telling us that Christmas means spending money. But we Christians, and especially all of us in the Work, know better.

When we remember the position of the Earth in the Solar System now, we may recall from previous years that we are approaching a very significant area. This is a deep esoteric teaching from many traditions, and science confirms its importance in unexpected ways.

In the northern hemisphere we are tilting away from the Sun, and this shift is what brings about the seasons of autumn and winter. At the solstice we will be tilted as far away as is possible for us, hence the lessening of the light and the withdrawal of warmth.

At the same time, our planet is aligning itself with the axis of the galaxy: we are experiencing less solar light, but more energies from the furthest reaches of the Milky Way and from galaxies beyond this.

We can measure - to some extent - the influence of solar flares and radioactive materials as they bombard the Earth's poles. This activity increases for us during our winter period, and we may see some of its effects for ourselves if we're lucky enough to witness the beautiful display of the Northern Lights.

But the effects of the particles reaching the Earth are very far-reaching, and we don't know what all of them are. We do know that they affect magnetism and communications. They disrupt radio waves and cause computer failures; we don't know what their effects on our bodies and spirits may be.

Not long ago, wi-fi technology was regarded as completely benign. Only recently have scientists begun to track some of its negative effects, and have found that some people experience health problems, both mental and physical, when exposed to it.

Imagine, then, what effects - for good or ill - may result from the increase in radiations coming from the Sun itself and from beyond! From Sirius, the Sun of the Sun, and from huge stars and supernovae much further away than we can picture! We don't know what they may be, but we can surmise that many of us will be affected in ways we can't measure but may well experience if we can become sufficiently conscious.

The Work shows the relationship of Earth to other planets, Suns and galaxies in the magnificent diagram of the Ray of Creation. It bears repeated study, especially at cosmically significant times of the year, so that we can be more aware of how the human being is affected by differing frequencies, differing substances - or hydrogens - coming to us from the Sun or from outer space.

The important thing is to remember that we have a chance now - during Advent and Christmas - to experience something completely new within our psychology. This new birth may take place in our Essence, but we must prepare ourselves for it through quiet contemplation, self-remembering, and prayer.

 The majority of people are still unaware of its happening. Rushing around, asleep in their dreams of material riches, they don't understand the real enrichment that is possible for them, if only they would awaken now.

The universe has been designed by an intelligence so much greater than ours that we can't begin to grasp it. We may call that intelligence "God", as long as we remember that its creative activity manifests in our emotions as well as in our thoughts; in our surroundings - the macrocosm - as well as in our inner world, our own microcosm.

The increased help that comes to us each year must come from a place beyond ourselves. It cannot come from ourselves. We cannot heal ourselves. We did not create ourselves, and - quite contrary to the misguided and ignorant "New Age" teachings so popular now, that purport to show us how to grab hold of more "stuff" - we cannot create anything new without that help from outside, from God.

That is why Advent is a time of quiet waiting, but it is not the quietness of inactivity. We increase our personal work now, taking more time to remember ourselves, to observe ourselves, to detach ourselves as far as we can from all that is turned only towards Life.

Our Personality, and our False Personality, manifests in the chatter of various I's now, urging us to buy, eat, drink, party, and so on, as if this is the way to celebrate a new birth! But deep within, most people know otherwise, and we in the Work must redouble our efforts to disidentify from all those I's that turn us away from our Higher Centres, from our Essence, from God.

The Sun itself has a "God", and that "God" is the star we know as Sirius. It is from the Sun, from Sirius, and from the far ends of the universe that new possibilities speed their way to us now.

Advent is a time of seeming sleep for the Earth, but it is the time above all when we in the Work must awaken - or else miss these wonderful opportunities for another year.

To awaken, our own store of higher hydrogens must increase. We must have gold in order to create more gold. If we are not prepared, we will miss this great opening. Therefore, it's wise to use all means possible - traditional rituals such as candles, music, pictures, increased readings, longer periods of meditation and special attention exercises - to make ourselves ready for it.

Ready, in four weeks, to celebrate Christmas.

The End of the Liturgical Year and the Month of Reckoning

In November we've been pondering, among other things, the importance of remembering the fact of our death. With this inevitable event in view, we've considered how to prepare ourselves psychologically for this great transition.

This is not a gloomy thought, unless we've lived so heedlessly that we have good reason to fear death.

For most of us, death will bring a new chance to develop in ways that we can't begin to understand from our limited viewpoint here. I know, from my own Near Death Experience, that death is not the end of existence. There is more, much more, and it will be liberating beyond all our expectation - but we must be ready for it when it happens.

Of course, some people are in complete denial about their own death. We see this from the popularity of youth serums, plastic surgery, desperate attempts to prolong life by artificial means, and even a rise in those seeking to have their bodies frozen at the moment of death. The idea behind this is that, some day, it might be possible to resuscitate them so that they live again in the same body.

What an absurd and truly frightening proposition! If it ever happens, the revived bodies will have no functioning brain and will simply be zombies. The lost soul, which generally hovers around the physical body for a short time after death so that it can witness the body's ultimate disposal, and the honours accorded to the loved, departed one, will be condemned to languish for perhaps hundreds of years around the frozen, hopeless corpse.

If one day that corpse is revived, the soul will have no brain with which to think, no voice to express itself, no means of communicating with the living.

Will that soul be sent to its next stage, regardless of the fate of the body? We simply don't know. We may hope that Conscious Humanity, with wisdom and compassion, will release it from any lingering attachment to the frozen corpse, and that the soul will be able to journey on its way to the next stage of its existence. But we can't say for certain. It is a troubling situation.

And what it reflects - the denial of an afterlife and the frantic, doomed attempt to prolong life on this Earth - is even more troubling.

In the Work, as in all the great religions of the world, we know that our earthly life will some day come to an end. We prepare ourselves for it daily, reminding ourselves of what is important, what is ephemeral. The Catholic phrase "to make a good end" is relevant here. There's no need to fear death if we have repented of all our life's sins and errors, and if we've made our peace with our families, friends and with the God of our understanding. This is called "dying in a state of grace", and it is the aim of all religions to make this possible.

We may fear pain, of course, but not death itself, which we believe - and some of us know, through having had Near Death Experiences - signals the end of pain and the start of a new form of existence, ultimately filled with joy and bliss in the presence of Conscious Humanity.

The liturgical year has always sought to bring us back to this fundamental fact in its readings and meditations for November. The great festival of Christ the King, held either at the beginning or end of November, depending on which church calendar is followed, reminds us that Christ - the leader and head of Conscious Humanity - is ultimately in charge of all creation. He will usher us into eternal life, if we have lived according to His precepts.

For those who have not done so, death may come as the complete end. Again, we don't know. We are told, however, that even the most earthbound, sinful soul may be granted the grace of "final repentance", that is, seeing the harm they have done in their lifetime, their need to repair that harm, and to repent of the great sorrow they have brought to their Creator. Anyone who repents then will face a prolonged period of reparation and sorrow after death before they are made ready to proceed further into the afterlife.

We can't say, therefore, whether any particular individual has been eternally condemned. Even horrendous, historical "hasnamuss" figures, such as Hitler or Stalin, may have eventually repented. But it is not a given, and we can only admit that we don't know, once again.

What should concern us here is the state of our own Being. Have we worked on ourselves today? Are we more awake this year than last? Have we forgiven others, and have we sought the forgiveness of those we have hurt this year? Have we been honest with ourselves about our own misdeeds, or have we become mired in self-justifying? Do we live in awareness of our own death, and with the constant, unflagging effort of self-perfection that this knowledge brings?

In the Work, as in the Christian faith and the Twelve Steps, we're encouraged to make a daily inventory and to measure how far we've lived up to our ideals, and where we've fallen short. But in the autumn, culminating in the month of November, this reckoning encompasses the entire previous year.

For most of us, the annual November report card will say "Could do better".

As the liturgical year draws to a close now, we remind ourselves that the purpose of our life is to work on ourselves, to overcome our mechanicalness, to become purified and ready to meet our own death whenever it may come.

And, after this annual reckoning, we look towards Advent and Christmas for the chance to celebrate a new birth in us, and in the world.

Advent Sunday begins this weekend, and I wish everyone a joyful and reflective season as we get ready to welcome the new birth that can occur for each of us at Christmas.

The angels proclaim "Peace on Earth to men of good will". That peace will be ours when we have worked on ourselves, have developed our understanding along with our will, so that we can practice that which we know to be necessary: the unending task of awakening, which prepares us for a higher state of Being.

"There is a crack in everything ... " - Leonard Cohen and the Kabbala

Leonard Cohen, who died last week, was a profoundly influential and much-loved singer and poet who drew many ideas from the Kabbalah.

Although later in life he identified as a Buddhist, his love of and reverence for the Jewish faith and especially its mystical teachings shone through everything he wrote.

One of his most famous lines, "There is a crack in everything - that's how the light gets in", is a trenchant reframing of a well known idea from the Kabbalist text, the Book of Splendour (in Hebrew, the Zohar).

Many people who profess to "know" the Kabbalah know only the basics of the diagram of the Tree of Life, the Sefirot, often used in so-called magical arts.  This diagram is indeed very important to understanding how the energies of God work in particular situations, but to know only this - along with some Hebrew letters - is to remain ignorant of the Kabbalah's most profound ideas.

One of these, to which Cohen is referring in the line quoted above, is that when God created the world, he first made vessels of clay into which he poured his light and love. Sadly, the light proved too strong for the frail vessels, and they shattered.

Subsequently they were re-formed, but inside them the light of God was now imprisoned, making what the Kabbalah calls the "sparks of holiness" that are to be found in everything existing.

The light may be liberated by the intentional acts of conscious men and women, the Kabbalah says, and it explains how this may be achieved.

In these teachings, the Kabbalah's theories come very close to those of Buddhism and to the Work. For, just as in the Buddhist Noble Eightfold Path and in the Work's instructions to act consciously and not from a state of sleep, the Kabbalah says that our intentions, our state of Being when we carry out a particular action, make that action fruitful or otherwise.

The light of imprisoned splendour may be freed from its shell of matter only when awakened people act to deliberately let it out, as it were.

What is this but a different way of speaking about enlightenment and the role of higher energies - hydrogens, as the Work terms then - in spirituality?

And what does this mean in practice?

Judaism teaches that very ordinary, everyday day acts can be elevated to the realm of the spiritual when blessings are said and when spiritual intentions guide our actions. So, for example, the act of preparing and eating a meal is to be carried out in a state of waking, with consciousness, and blessings said before we eat. By doing so we liberate the sparks of holiness that are to found in the food we eat - the higher hydrogens - and then the holiness that dwells within us is increased and also set free when needed. If you study the Food Diagram, you will see how this actually takes place.

Of course, this is the very essence of the Work teaching about consciousness! In the Work we're not told to say particular blessings: that is optional, although I, along with many others, find saying grace and other blessings during the day is extremely helpful in focusing my attention.

But living in a state of awakening means that we are already in a state of higher consciousness than when we forget and fall asleep, living solely in life, acting mechanically and without intention.

Judaism prescribes many blessings to be said at various times during the day, over different daily actions, and if all are them are remembered, the Kabbalist - including many Orthodox Hassidic men and women who would not necessarily claim that title - lives in a state of awakening. And this is exactly what we are told to do in the Work.

Similarly, Christianity and Buddhism also prescribe certain prayers and blessings to be said in a state of self-remembering during our ordinary daily lives, and in just the same way we will find if we obey these guidelines that we are living in a state of awakening. The Work calls prayers and blessings "reminding factors", and they are important aids to staying awake, just as surrounding ourselves with sacred pictures and reading Work books also provide necessary reminders.

In many ways I believe Leonard Cohen was well on the way to enlightenment. If you look at his birthchart, his chief influences were those of Neptune and Mercury; Neptune inspired him with the highest ideals for mankind and universal spiritual awakening, while Mercury enabled him to study higher teachings and to communicate them through his work as a poet and singer.

In his daily life he was often misunderstood and criticized, and trusted the wrong people, but he took everything that happened as a means to spiritual progress.

One example I find particularly poignant is his love for, and unselfish dedication to, the Jewish people and especially the State of Israel. He greatly admired the morality and idealism of the Israeli Defence Force, and gave free concerts to them and to many others in Israel.

When the Palestinians protested that he was ignoring them and their own wishes for peace, Cohen immediately offered to put on a free concert in Ramallah, to share his songs and his longing for peace with the Palestinian people.

They, however, refused, saying that they would not have anything to do with someone who had visited Israel! And that was the end of that peace initiative.

Cohen did not allow their rejection to cause him to hate them, however, and to the end of his life he wished profoundly for peace and reconciliation in the Middle East; his daily actions and his attitudes to those around him embodied these ideals in material form.

We've said goodbye - or rather, "So long, Leonard" - to one of the greatest popular singers and poets of our time. His ideals and his music will continue to inspire as long as people remember his songs; and through them, the ideals of the Kabbalah will also find expression.

Judging versus Discerning

We know we are not to judge - the Bible, the Work, and many other spiritual belief systems tell us so. And for good reason. We never have all the facts, so we can't make accurate judgements; we are often wrong; and if we judge ourselves, we can't be objective.

What's more, judging usually equates to condemning, and by condemning ourselves we trigger toxic shame and prevent ourselves from seeing what we're really like. We shut down the observing I too quickly, because the results are distressing. Then, without insight, we can no longer see ourselves clearly and so cannot develop or change at all.

When we judge others, our vision is similarly handicapped. We can't know, for example, exactly why someone has behaved in a certain way, and it's possible - no, likely - that if we came from a similar background and had similar problems, we would behave in just the same way. It's always a case of "There but for the grace of God, go I".

Take the example of a heroin addict. A young woman, addicted to this expensive drug, is forced to prostitute herself to buy more of the heroin she needs in order to function. She's open to exploitation from dealers and pimps, and puts herself in great danger every time she walks the streets.

It's easy to look at someone like this and judge her as stupid, feckless or simply a "bad lot".

But if you had grown up in a deprived home, with a single parent struggling to cope with multiple children by different fathers, or with two inadequate parents unable to set boundaries; insufficient income to provide for the family's needs; and a set of addiction genes that predisposed you to become hooked on opiates - all circumstances I've seen in any number of counselling clients - then you might very well have taken the same path.

So, judging in this way is out of bounds to anyone on a spiritual path. It's foolish. It does no good and can cause much harm.

Similarly, we can't look at any individual and decide that because of their behaviour and lack of remorse they are destined for permanent destruction, "going to hell", incapable of change.

We don't know whether someone will be given the grace of final repentance. Perhaps, on their death bed, they will deeply regret their actions and yearn for another chance. And perhaps, since the God of our understanding - of any spiritually inclined pilgrim's understanding - is a God of great compassion and mercy, this person will indeed be offered a second chance, after a necessary term in what we think of as purgatory, the process of purification by which our faults and sins are cleansed from us.

We must, however, exercise our judgement in deciding the best way to treat other people and the best path to follow for our own development.

When we advise people not to judge, we mean that we are not to judge people. But their actions, their choices, their way of life can and must be judged if they happen to cross our path, because what we make of them determines how we may relate to them.

In the case of the young prostitute I suggested above, we would see that the only way to help her would be, first of all, to advise her to come into recovery. And that would be possible only if the woman herself wished to do so. We can't compel anyone to follow the path we know would be best for them. Each of us has our own destiny, our own fate, and to interfere with the fate of another is a very serious spiritual crime.

Saving them, however, is mandatory, if we're given the chance to do so. And sometimes, of course, we are. We may be in the right place at the right time to suggest going into rehab; we may, if we have gained their confidence by refusing to judge or condemn them, be listened to, and our advice may be taken.

And, as far as looking at our own behaviour is concerned, of course we have to judge the effects our actions have on ourselves and others; we have to discern whether we're on the right path or whether we've strayed from our ideals; we have to decide which I's we want to cultivate and strengthen, and which are harmful and must be given no more of our time or energy.

I think, in these case, "discernment" is a better term than "judgement".

Discernment is a gift of the Holy Spirit. As mature Work students, following the Fourth Way, we are practising Christianity in its deepest and most essential form, and we can and must use the gift of discernment to our own and others' benefit.

We can't discern the final destiny of any individual soul, but we can discern the likely outcome of a course of action.

We may not condemn anyone - including ourselves - to a sorry end, but we must discern the best course to follow in any situation so as to avoid such an end ourselves.

And we must discern, from long observation, the value of the different I's in various centres which habitually take over our Personality and False Personality, so that we recognize them and detach from the useless, energy-sapping I's and allow the useful, valuable I's to act in their place.

This process is part of contemplating the Four Last Things which the Catholic church puts before us for consideration during the month of November.

Death; Judgement; Heaven; Hell - all these are worthy of pondering, and discernment will show us how to live in order to achieve the one, and avoid the other.

Death, of course, comes to all of us, but if we have lived well, using discernment, then there will be nothing to fear. It is simply the journey to a different, higher plane, where all we have done and all we need to do will be placed before us, and where we, seeing ourselves in the Light, Love and Truth of Conscious Humanity, will choose the next stage for our development.

We may have many lessons still to be learned on Earth, or we may be ready to enter a different form of existence. But we shall see, with perfect discernment and with the help of the only good and wise Judge, God Himself, however we choose to name Him, who we are and where our next stage will be lived.